← return

Letting Small Things Go

By Chris Du

I identify myself with Christ, knowing and embracing the reality that I’m a sinner in need of grace. As a native New Yorker, it cannot be more real! I have the tendency to be critical, impatient and frustrated at small things in ways most do not see. When I first became a follower of Jesus, it bled much into how I ministered to and served with others.

Getting exposed to college ministry through Cru and Epic gave me a renewed foundation of what servant leadership really called for: to be bearers of patience with the Spirit’s leading, which Paul briefly shares as in Galatians 5. 

Ever since I started serving on ABC’s Worship Team, I have been fortunate to be surrounded by brothers and sisters who clearly have been gifted by God to glorify Him through music. When I was asked to lead our entire ministry a year-and-a-half ago, I was shocked yet grateful to be given this opportunity. But I would be lying if I said there was not any hesitation to saying ‘yes’ while knowing how impatient I could be. When I looked back and reflected on what God has shown me through our team, it went beyond others' gifts, talents, and passion -- it was their patience.

I remember leading worship one Sunday and came to service somewhat unprepared, which led to this immense self-pressure that grew every time I screwed up during practice or service. After service, I apologized to the whole team for not putting the work into creating the best product from the beginning and not being on cue when I should have been.

Linda Hwong (former keyboard), Ben Brooks (bass) and Carrson Morris (electric) approached me separately and all said something very similar: “We are not professionals who are putting on a performance, but we are ordinary people who want our service to be pure, genuine and worshipful to God.”

From that point on, I gained a deeper understanding of what it meant to let go of the small things along with a newfound appreciation of extending more grace to myself and also granting patience to others.